How would it feel? To cut through the electric blue, the pipes that run through out me. From head to toe. If I bleed through it, will it be the death of me? How would it look? Would it glisten and make me weak in the knees right in the beginning? Or does the tingling come last? I would have to wait until my hands stroke it across, to finally finish riding that electric blue down until I see the darkness to finally set my mind at peace. I just want to rest my soul. My hurting soul…..
I alter myself because I hate who I am. What’s eating me alive. What’s devouring my soul each passing day. My strength squeezes all my anxiety in my bottle of water and I realize how much deeper this has gotten. I close my eyes and I see nothing but a nightmare, and I can’t fucking wake up. My blood sheds darker each time I open up. It’s not that I want to die. I just want to release this demon inside me already. My vicious circle I can’t escape.